girlsdontcry's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The diary entry as a form of procrastination I'm doing everything possible to avoid the task at hand, which is packing my belongings. I'm so bad at this that I really oughtn't have to do it. I hate endings. But today has a beginning as well as an end, so... hey, but I'm not going to make the mistake of getting enthusiastic about it. I dropped an entire roll of toilet paper in the toilet. And a brand new toothbrush still in the packaging. What a loser. I couldn't stop writing in my paper journal last night. Four-and-a-half pages of small script. In it, I said: "I am not asking for proof, just a moment of pure unadulterated faith, not blighted by my cynicism, my depression, my self-loathing. A moment of believing that all of this has a meaning, and that I have a place in it." But this morning, I'll be happy with not dropping anything else in the toilet. 8:50 a.m. - 2003-05-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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