girlsdontcry's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I did it Well, kids. I did it. I made it for forty days and forty nights and I did not drink alcohol and I did not smoke a cigarette, and I did not eat chocolate or have sex or take any illegal substances. I did not eat cake, although I did break a couple of my original resolutions, like drinking fizzy pop and eating dessert. And how has it changed my life? I don't know. I've been drinking already. And I tried to smoke a cigarette but it was horrible. I ate chocolate. I feel unclean. It proved to me that I can do something if I put my mind to it. That feels good. I think it showed me that if I'm depressed, giving up alcohol is probably a good first move. Even though I know that when you feel like shit then alcohol seems like the saviour and you don't care if it's a problem. Not that it was a problem. I saved money. I can do things if I put my mind to it. But it's not the answer to everything. The guy, the only guy I've ever been in love with is coming here next month. I finished a book. Why didn't any of you tell me about The Fuck-Up by Arthur Nersesian? I needed to know about that book for a long long time and you didn't tell me. Thanks. I love yous all. I want to live a thousand different lives. I want to talk to Carie and to Jen too. And everyone. 011 44 7941 688 034. That's me. 12:21 a.m. - 2003-04-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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